New York Desiel - The ramblings of a melted mind.

My name is TJ.

I was born in 1994, and I love a lot of different things.

I also dislike a lot of things.



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  1. "People who believe they’ll be happy if they go and live somewhere else, learn it doesn’t work that way. Wherever you go, you take yourself with you."
    — Neil Gaiman (via psych-facts)
  2. "
    1. push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.

      2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.

      3. erase processed food from your diet. start with no lollies, chips, biscuits, then erase pasta, rice, cereal, then bread. use the rule that if a child couldn’t identify what was in it, you don’t eat it.

      4. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.

      5. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.

      6. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.

      7. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.

      8. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.

      9. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.

      10. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.

      11. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.

      12. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.

      14. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.

      15. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.

      16. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.

    Sixteen Small Steps to Happiness  (via esolswooonn)

    Fucking love this

    (via bated-breath)

    (Source: emma-elsworthy)

  3. 420 Blaze up.

  4. I can’t believe I could do that to the person I loved the most and I didn’t even consider what I was doing.

    There are so many regrets.

    But the time we had was the best time of my life. You were the best thing to happen to me. It’s a shame that we almost have to grow apart. 

    I will always love you more than I even imagined it was possible to love someone.

  5. Sometimes you love the idea more than the actuality.

  6. "You need to realize that the way you are feeling now will not be permanent."
    —  r.h (via psych-facts)
  7. I fart in your general direction, your mother was a hamster and your father smelled like elderberries.

  8. organic-tea:



    How gorgeous is this.


    I’ve been waiting to see this again.


    (Source: yellingapple)

  9. "If you have time to think of a beautiful end, then why not live beautifully until the end?"
    — Sakata Gintoki (Gintama)
  10. "What they had done in their youth, and what for millenniums had been man’s vocation, joy and pleasure — to ride a horse, to plow in the morning the steaming field, to walk behind the oxen, to mow the yellow grain in the blazing summer heat while streams of sweat poured down the tanned body and the women who bound the sheaves could hardly keep in step with the mowers, to rest at noon for a meal in the shade of green trees — all this, praised by the poets since times immemorial, was now past and gone.

    Joy in labor had disappeared."
    — Ernst Jünger, The Glass Bees (via anarchomonarchism)
  11. "Working hard for something we don’t care about is called stress; working hard for something we love is called passion."
    — Simon Sinek (via psych-facts)
  12. detenebrate:



    Isn’t it odd how everyone that supports abortion has already been born?

    Strangely, everyone who opposes abortion has also been born. It’s almost like you have to be born to have opinions… like it’s part of the basic definition of being a person or something. I’m so glad you pointed that out. It’s a really great point.

    This was a masterfully made point. I am in awe.

    (Source: pricestreetbeachclub)

  13. did-you-kno:

  14. I am therefore leaving immediately for Nepal, where I intend to live as a goat.

  15. I love how when you look at Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs an artist strives for the top of the pyramid without care for the lower layers.